Jan16,2018: Waiting to exhale... It has been 9 yrs since, when a woman named BB. declared ‘Rustom is DEAD.’ So, who killed Rustom Padilla, to quote #RickyLo’s headline, and where is his body? Well, his body was never found and the prime suspect lived in liberty but not without cause. As I enter my decade of resilience to endure all that is needed to go thru the very, an understatement, difficult process called TRANSITION, even more challenging times ahead is expected. I’ve been mentioning these different aspects such as the physical, social, psychological, spiritual, physiological and professional confusion bec I have believed from the onset of my transition that all of these will be vital as I see myself eventually assimilating in the society as a woman, not as a man cross dressing as a woman or as a gay man, no pun intended, but as a WOMAN, transgender I may be. My life since Januaryof2009, was anything but EASY. It is a decade of self awakening and awareness. A decade of, without being dramatic, back breaking experiences in the physical and spiritual sense. Had it not with the guiding force and strength of a straight from the heart prayers to the one and only true God, Jehovah, nothing will ever be possible. I look back and wonder, how the heck, I have even gone this far? And not only did I get this far, I can honestly say also, that I’m exactly where I am supposed to be. Peaceful and hopeful as I enter my decade of womanhood, despite the troubling hate that threatens my person even in the land of the Free and the Brave. And in the wake of #MLKJr. day... may I pay tribute, in my own little way, to the man I consider a modern day hero for he has remained a constant reminder that indeed, I too can Dream... that I am in the land who BELIEVE and RESPECT that “ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL.” #transisbeautiful #transpinay #pinayactressinhollywood #dreamtobecome #kabuki #elizabeththevirginqueen #actorsaccess #lacasting #castingfrontier #castingsocietyofamerica @thebroganagency

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BB Gandanghari has revealed how she has found peace with herself since her transition from male to female, despite the "troubling hate" she continues to face and fears over losing work.

Gandanghari, who began her transition in 2009, is currently signed under The Brogan Agency, a California-based talent firm that represents film, television, commercial, print, and theater actors.

She said that working with the agency has allowed her to audition for some of the top networks in the US, and that it made her believe that "the great white Hollywood way is finally within sight."

But her road to where she is now was far from smooth sailing.

In her letter marking the "death" of her past Rustom Padilla self, Gandanghari said that these past few years have been filled with "back breaking experiences in the physical and spiritual sense."

She also noted that how her belief in her religion became her "guiding force and strength."

"I look back and wonder, how the heck, I have even gone this far? And not only did I get this far, I can honestly say also that I’m exactly where I am supposed to be," she wrote.

"Peaceful and hopeful as I enter my decade of womanhood."

#top9instagramposts2017: What a year it was! 🎉🎊And so, will be remembered as the year the God Almighty, Jehovah in his undeserved kindness, has lovingly disciplined yours truly. Praise be to my King... Jesus Christ🙏 #2017recap

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It was last month when "Pilipinas Got Talent" judge and action star Robin Padilla, her brother, expressed concern for her after revealing that she has been moonlighting as an Uber driver.

"Medyo kinakabahan lang ako dahil siyempre America iyon. Hindi ko naman kabisado ang mga tao doon. Kung saan-saan siya minsan pumupunta. Nagko-cross country siya para sa mga hindi niya kilala," he said.

She also prompted worry from fans after she opened up about her fading Hollywood dream.

Gandanghari first came out during the celebrity edition of the ABS-CBN reality show "Pinoy Big Brother" in 2006.

A decade later, she was formally recognized as a woman by a Los Angeles court.